Again And Again

 

Mya - Again & Again

INTRO

I've tried so hard to make you understand
That it's over
Yes, it's over
Mmm, mmm, mmm
Ooh, yeah

VERSE 1

Why can't you just let it go?
I'm not yours anymore, I want you to know
I tried so hard to explain
But it seems from your presence that it's all in vain
I said goodbye (I said goodbye)
I'm letting go (Letting go, yeah)
You say you wanna come back
But I don't wanna know, wanna know, baby

REFRAIN

Again and again and again and again and again and again
You come back to me, boy
You come back to me, boy
Again and again and again and again and again and again
You come back to me, boy
But you don't hear me, no

VERSE 2

Leave me the f* alone
Don't make me change my number, don't make me change my home
Believe me when I say that
You need help from someone but that someone ain't me
'Cause you wanna be the man (wanna be the man)
That keeps knockin' my door (hey, hey, hey)
And it's not okay (it's not okay)
'Cause you keep running in and running out of my heart

REPEAT REFRAIN

BRIDGE

Again and again, you keep coming around
When all you wanna do is let me down (hey)
'Cause I don't feel you no more
But you still calling me, boy
Why don't you see you're wasting my time?
It's over with, boy, get out of my life
You need some help from someone
Now leave me, leave me the hell alone, oh

Heh it's been a minute since I've had a good "menses" story.   I've briefly mentioned this person in my All The E's Menses post from almost 5 years ago in 2021.  This will actually be Doug's first and hopefully last solo post.  I mentioned Doug in passing on two other posts outside of my 2021 post.

As I previously mentioned, Doug and I met on A4A sometime in the summer of 2020 which will always be remembered as the first summer of COVID.   We chatted back and forth and we both had expressed concerns about COVID but decided to meet anyway.   Our first time meeting was in my garage.   We had a hot time kissing and sucking inside the back seat of my car.   He sucked me off and in a surprise move for me, I sucked him off.

Swallowing cum isn't an activity I particularly enjoy.   The cum itself is slimy, has a slight odor, and makes me feel nauseous.    But for some reason I went with it and it wasn't horrible.

He would visit me several more times over the summer and the next summer.   We would mostly meet in my basement and we would make out and then end with sucking each other off.   We never did anal.   His last visit was sometime in the late summer of 2021.    This time he picked me at my home and we drove to a nearby nature preserve. 

We walked along a trail and we stopped at different points to make out.   He wanted to suck me off at each point and I said not yet.   And we kept walking.   We held hands for a brief moment and later passed a random older couple walking in the opposite direction.   

There was a small alcove area with two benches that was situated several feet away from the path.   From the alcove you had a view of the swampy area as well as the rest of the preserve area.   It was a relatively private area and the perfect spot for sucking each other off.

We were both so nervous and we each watched to see if anyone was coming while the other was sucking for some cum.   The risk made things more exciting and it proved to be a hot time for both of us.   We sat on the bench for a few minutes more enjoying the view before we both made our way back to his car.   He had a call he needed to make and dropped me back at the house.   I offered for him to make the call in the house but he decided he needed to head back.

That would be the last time that we met in person.

For the next several years he would periodically message me on A4A (even though we had exchanged numbers beforehand) and would ask what my schedule was like and what day would be good to meet.   I would confirm on a day and time and he would just say okay or most times not reply.   Of course on the day suggested he would completely disappear online and not be reachable.

As the same cycle happened again and again, I would get more agitated.   I decided sometime in late 2022 to block him on A4A so he couldn't communicate with me anymore.   I didn't block him on my cell phone.  My hope was that he would reach out to me by phone if he noticed that he couldn't reach me anymore on A4A.  He never did.

In a moment of weakness I unblocked him.   He didn't mention anything about having access to me again except saying he was glad I opened my account again.   But it would be the same pattern again.   This time though since I was used to it I didn't let it bother me.    

The way it would go is after the day he was supposed to meet me passed, he wouldn't message me for one or two months.   Then one random day after a passage of time he would ask the same questions about my schedule and availability.   This time though I expected that we would not meet.   I would randomly say some day even if I wasn't available and move on.  

In the back of my mind I knew he wouldn't meet me anyway.   Sure enough that day would pass and the cycle would happen again.   I kept playing the game whenever he would ask and he would keep the same pattern of disappearing.   

It was pretty comical.   He claimed that he enjoyed our "friendship" but I would suggest meeting him somewhere for lunch or dinner and he would not commit.   He works some kind of sales job selling HVAC systems.   He claims that his job has him traveling to Fort Wayne, IN and Columbus, OH at times.   He also claims to be living with a co-worker in a rental apartment.   I asked if the co-worker was gay and he said no.

He admitted once that he kept a distance from me so that he wouldn't get attached to me since I had Dom.   On the one hand it was understandable but on the other I just didn't get it.

I offered an opportunity to meet Dom by helping us move some things around the house.   Dom isn't able to move around much and it would've been a good opportunity to introduce him and possibly discuss him being more a part of my life.   But he would not commit and always claimed to be busy.

Fast forward to November 14, 2025 and we're messaging on A4A.  It happened to be a slow Friday at work and I was in downtown Chicago.   For some reason I decided that maybe since we can't meet each other in person, maybe we could meet on Google meet.   At first he wasn't too thrilled about it.   I told him that it was over 4 years since we last met in person.   He expressed shock that it was that much time.  After some time he finally decided it was fine for us to meet online.

So I sent him the link and it took him fifteen minutes or so before he joined.  I almost thought he was going to do another no-show but to my surprise he appeared.    We both chatted and marveled at how we didn't think to do this before.   I kept noticing he was turning his head towards the hallway.   He kept looking like he was worried that somebody was going to catch him.

We were online for less than ten minutes and I decided to end it because he just didn't look comfortable at all.   I snuck a photo of him while we were meeting so I could add it to my phone.   I figured it would be the closest I would ever see him.

So Dom was planning to go home the weekend before Thanksgiving to see his Mom.  I stupidly messaged Doug telling him I was free that weekend if he wanted to come up.   He kept saying he hoped it would work out.   I think you know what happened next.

I told myself after that I was done with him.   To my shock he texted me on the phone wishing me a Happy Thanksgiving.   It was his first time ever wishing me a happy holiday by text.    This was a few days after he pulled his latest disappearing act so I was peeved.   I contemplated ignoring him altogether but I wanted to reward good behavior as he never really initiated a phone text.   But I was still mad.   All I could say was "Thanks, you too".

That would be the last time we messaged until earlier today.   I logged into A4A today and he's back to the same pattern asking when he can meet me.   I immediately logged off.   I'm wanting to tell him off but I may this time ask me what happened to the last time.   As much as I hate to say it, I still do have some feelings for him.   I'm not naive though.  I know things won't change.

But like Mya used to sing in her song Again And Again, I wish he would just leave me the hell alone!!!