Turn Around

 Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse Of The Heart

VERSE1:
(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round 

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit tired of listening to the sound of my tears 

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by 

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes 

(Turn around, bright eyes) Every now and then I fall apart 

(Turn around, bright eyes) Every now and then I fall apart

VERSE2:

 (Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild 

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms 

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry 

(Turn around) Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes 

(Turn around, bright eyes) Every now and then I fall apart 

(Turn around, bright eyes) Every now and then I fall apart 

REFRAIN:

And I need you now tonight 

And I need you more than ever 

And if you only hold me tight 

We'll be holding on forever 

And we'll only be making it right

 'Cause we'll never be wrong 

Together we can take it to the end of the line 

Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time (all of the time) 

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark 

We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks I really need you tonight 

Forever's gonna start tonight (Forever's gonna start tonight)

Once upon a time I was falling in love But now I'm only falling apart 

There's nothing I can do 

A total eclipse of the heart 

Once upon a time there was light in my life 

But now there's only love in the dark Nothing I can say 

A total eclipse of the heart

Midas and I met halfway for lunch at a tasty Italian eatery last Saturday.   He called me two weeks back and was having a moment thinking about life and how we only have so much time left and he wanted to see me.  I definitely have those life moments in my head as well.   They become more so since my parents are gone.   So I completely understood.

We had a great lunch, a quite filling lunch.   He was thirty minutes late so I had a small order of hot wings that had a crunchy dry rub.   It had a subtle heat to it.   Once he arrived I then ordered a chicken habanero sandwich with coleslaw dressing and included mushrooms and giardiniera.   It also came with a side of fries.   I've had better fries but the sandwich was pure perfection.    Then Midas and I shared a tasty tiramisu.

During the tail end of our lunch, Midas noticed an attractive guy coming into the restaurant and he wanted me to, you guessed it, turn around to look at him.   I've had this happen to me several times over the years on different occasions.    That always annoyed me because I don't want to make it obvious that I'm staring.   Midas kept insisting but I held my ground and didn't do so.   I did catch a glimpse of who I thought it was when we left and he seemed okay.   But I guess I had to see him standing up since I didn't feel he was all that.

Midas and I definitely have a different relationship now.  The sexual part of it is gone.   I'm not sure if that will ever come back.  And I'm fine with that.     Ironically the hanging out for lunch part of the relationship was what we missed so long ago.   We were only doing the benefits without the friendship.   I wanted to hang out with Midas outside of sex not just for lunch but maybe to catch a movie or concert but he had no interest.   I wanted to ultimately have a relationship but he had no interest in that either.   So it's kind of funny that it's happening now when I'm starting to want to rekindle the old days.

But I've said it before.   Things were meant to happen the way they happened.   Ironically Midas worked very hard to keep the line of communication open between us even when I tried to forget him.  In doing so I feel our relationship has grown to where it is now.   In getting to know him over the years I've gotten to see other sides of him that makes me continue to appreciate having him in my life.   Here's hoping our next meeting will happen sooner rather than later.