Yesterday I received a cryptic call from Dom as I was arriving home from work. He told me that I needed to check the low fence in the back alley. He wouldn't tell me what was wrong. Come to find out, part of our fence was ripped from the ground and barely hanging on to the rest of the fence. The area of fence ripped was located just at the edge of our property right next to our neighbor's fence which was undamaged. It wasn't connected to our neighbor's fence since they have a tall wooden fence.
I couldn't understand how it could happen. Tuesday is our garbage day and our garbage was picked up as normal. I didn't see any tire tracks by the fence and I couldn't make out any footprints even though we just got a fresh batch of snow on the ground. The only marks were around the garbage container showing where the container stood and further along the right-of-way were tire tracks from the vehicles that traverse the back alley.
Dom unfortunately didn't hear any noises coming from that area and our next door neighbor has a camera in their back wooden fence and it didn't capture anything. We had a camera in our back area installed after we had our garbage can stolen but our WI-FI has issues in the winter reaching beyond our home so it wasn't in place. I was planning to get a WI-FI extender to plug in the garage but hadn't done so. I will definitely need to do that now so I can add my camera back.
We suspect either the garbage truck or a snow plow may have caused the damage. But there were no tire tracks near the fence. Dom discovered it when he went to pick up the garbage container. The container itself was standing in its usual place. I couldn't see any damages or scratches on the container itself.
As it stands we have no proof of what caused our low fence to be pulled from the ground. I do plan to reach out to two of our other neighbors in the perimeter to see if they saw anything. I'm not holding out any hope but it doesn't hurt to try. I don't want to repeat the mistake of not talking to our neighbors when our home was robbed in 2016. Otherwise I'm not sure what we can do. I could file a police report and a claim to the city but without proof, the city would decline our case and not cover the cost of repair. It's just another day in paradise...LOL.
I've tried so hard to make you understand That it's over Yes, it's over Mmm, mmm, mmm Ooh, yeah
VERSE 1
Why can't you just let it go? I'm not yours anymore, I want you to know I tried so hard to explain But it seems from your presence that it's all in vain I said goodbye (I said goodbye) I'm letting go (Letting go, yeah) You say you wanna come back But I don't wanna know, wanna know, baby
REFRAIN
Again and again and again and again and again and again You come back to me, boy You come back to me, boy Again and again and again and again and again and again You come back to me, boy But you don't hear me, no
VERSE 2
Leave me the f* alone Don't make me change my number, don't make me change my home Believe me when I say that You need help from someone but that someone ain't me 'Cause you wanna be the man (wanna be the man) That keeps knockin' my door (hey, hey, hey) And it's not okay (it's not okay) 'Cause you keep running in and running out of my heart
REPEAT REFRAIN
BRIDGE
Again and again, you keep coming around When all you wanna do is let me down (hey) 'Cause I don't feel you no more But you still calling me, boy Why don't you see you're wasting my time? It's over with, boy, get out of my life You need some help from someone Now leave me, leave me the hell alone, oh
Heh it's been a minute since I've had a good "menses" story. I've briefly mentioned this person in my All The E's Menses post from almost 5 years ago in 2021. This will actually be Doug's first and hopefully last solo post. I mentioned Doug in passing on two other posts outside of my 2021 post.
As I previously mentioned, Doug and I met on A4A sometime in the summer of 2020 which will always be remembered as the first summer of COVID. We chatted back and forth and we both had expressed concerns about COVID but decided to meet anyway. Our first time meeting was in my garage. We had a hot time kissing and sucking inside the back seat of my car. He sucked me off and in a surprise move for me, I sucked him off.
Swallowing cum isn't an activity I particularly enjoy. The cum itself is slimy, has a slight odor, and makes me feel nauseous. But for some reason I went with it and it wasn't horrible.
He would visit me several more times over the summer and the next summer. We would mostly meet in my basement and we would make out and then end with sucking each other off. We never did anal. His last visit was sometime in the late summer of 2021. This time he picked me at my home and we drove to a nearby nature preserve.
We walked along a trail and we stopped at different points to make out. He wanted to suck me off at each point and I said not yet. And we kept walking. We held hands for a brief moment and later passed a random older couple walking in the opposite direction.
There was a small alcove area with two benches that was situated several feet away from the path. From the alcove you had a view of the swampy area as well as the rest of the preserve area. It was a relatively private area and the perfect spot for sucking each other off.
We were both so nervous and we each watched to see if anyone was coming while the other was sucking for some cum. The risk made things more exciting and it proved to be a hot time for both of us. We sat on the bench for a few minutes more enjoying the view before we both made our way back to his car. He had a call he needed to make and dropped me back at the house. I offered for him to make the call in the house but he decided he needed to head back.
That would be the last time that we met in person.
For the next several years he would periodically message me on A4A (even though we had exchanged numbers beforehand) and would ask what my schedule was like and what day would be good to meet. I would confirm on a day and time and he would just say okay or most times not reply. Of course on the day suggested he would completely disappear online and not be reachable.
As the same cycle happened again and again, I would get more agitated. I decided sometime in late 2022 to block him on A4A so he couldn't communicate with me anymore. I didn't block him on my cell phone. My hope was that he would reach out to me by phone if he noticed that he couldn't reach me anymore on A4A. He never did.
In a moment of weakness I unblocked him. He didn't mention anything about having access to me again except saying he was glad I opened my account again. But it would be the same pattern again. This time though since I was used to it I didn't let it bother me.
The way it would go is after the day he was supposed to meet me passed, he wouldn't message me for one or two months. Then one random day after a passage of time he would ask the same questions about my schedule and availability. This time though I expected that we would not meet. I would randomly say some day even if I wasn't available and move on.
In the back of my mind I knew he wouldn't meet me anyway. Sure enough that day would pass and the cycle would happen again. I kept playing the game whenever he would ask and he would keep the same pattern of disappearing.
It was pretty comical. He claimed that he enjoyed our "friendship" but I would suggest meeting him somewhere for lunch or dinner and he would not commit. He works some kind of sales job selling HVAC systems. He claims that his job has him traveling to Fort Wayne, IN and Columbus, OH at times. He also claims to be living with a co-worker in a rental apartment. I asked if the co-worker was gay and he said no.
He admitted once that he kept a distance from me so that he wouldn't get attached to me since I had Dom. On the one hand it was understandable but on the other I just didn't get it.
I offered an opportunity to meet Dom by helping us move some things around the house. Dom isn't able to move around much and it would've been a good opportunity to introduce him and possibly discuss him being more a part of my life. But he would not commit and always claimed to be busy.
Fast forward to November 14, 2025 and we're messaging on A4A. It happened to be a slow Friday at work and I was in downtown Chicago. For some reason I decided that maybe since we can't meet each other in person, maybe we could meet on Google meet. At first he wasn't too thrilled about it. I told him that it was over 4 years since we last met in person. He expressed shock that it was that much time. After some time he finally decided it was fine for us to meet online.
So I sent him the link and it took him fifteen minutes or so before he joined. I almost thought he was going to do another no-show but to my surprise he appeared. We both chatted and marveled at how we didn't think to do this before. I kept noticing he was turning his head towards the hallway. He kept looking like he was worried that somebody was going to catch him.
We were online for less than ten minutes and I decided to end it because he just didn't look comfortable at all. I snuck a photo of him while we were meeting so I could add it to my phone. I figured it would be the closest I would ever see him.
So Dom was planning to go home the weekend before Thanksgiving to see his Mom. I stupidly messaged Doug telling him I was free that weekend if he wanted to come up. He kept saying he hoped it would work out. I think you know what happened next.
I told myself after that I was done with him. To my shock he texted me on the phone wishing me a Happy Thanksgiving. It was his first time ever wishing me a happy holiday by text. This was a few days after he pulled his latest disappearing act so I was peeved. I contemplated ignoring him altogether but I wanted to reward good behavior as he never really initiated a phone text. But I was still mad. All I could say was "Thanks, you too".
That would be the last time we messaged until earlier today. I logged into A4A today and he's back to the same pattern asking when he can meet me. I immediately logged off. I'm wanting to tell him off but I may this time ask him what happened to the last time. As much as I hate to say it, I still do have some feelings for him. We had enjoyed each other's company during the times we met so I don't understand all the game playing he's doing now. I'm not naive though. I know things won't change.
But like Mya used to sing in her song Again And Again, I wish he would just leave me the hell alone!!!
Apparently there's a new movie coming out later this month that is about Orange's wife Melania. I don't know who thought this would be a great idea considering the state of the current White House administration. It's been reported that thousands of posters mentioning the movie has been vandalized. Given the feelings people have about Orange, I can't say this is much of a surprise. The advertising company wisely decided to remove all the posters and not add them once more.
There's supposed to be a premiere of the movie at the Kennedy Center the evening before it's released in theatres. I refuse to call the Kennedy Center anything else. I see this movie flopping and being pulled out of theatres after one or two weeks.
The current White House administration continues to be tone deaf in how a lot of the American people view them. We're in a world now where the administration's mandated "ICE" agents which really consist of former Proud Boy members, can target anyone on the streets and harass them and potentially kill them. Sadly they even harass people in their own homes.
Every day Orange says one stupid thing after another and noone in Congress is doing anything about it. Sure they refute what he says but the fact that he is still in office (or even was eligible to be elected for a second term) is a travesty.
He's turned a lot of our allies against us and there may be a day soon when the United States is no longer a country. We're truly living in scary times. My only grace is that I'm in my 50's and not starting off my life trying to navigate in a world where rent, food, and housing is higher than income and having a government that's working against me. Sure I have to deal with the food and housing now but at least I was able to establish myself years back when things weren't as insane. Who knew those were the good ol' days? I do not want to be in my 20's today. They have a lot stacked against them.
So yeah back on topic, hell to the no on this movie! I will be reading the reviews though for those brave enough to watch it...should be fun. Cue in the popcorn.
Happy New Year! As I pen my official first post of 2026, I'm feeling blessed to have made it into another year. I spent my last evening of 2025 quietly at home with Dom. I ordered some crab legs and claws from an outfit called PrimeFish Seafood Company. The order arrived just before Christmas and I was able to freeze them and save some for part of my New Year's Eve dinner. They were a pricey order but part of their appeal is that you only get the crab and lobster meat itself which is freeze packed and not the shells. So it's just a matter of cutting the package and letting the meat out. You can either eat it cold or cook it in some butter for a few minutes. Either way it was very tasty and a good meal for the New Year.
It was a pricey meal and something I probably won't do for a while. But I've seen the ads for the company for at least two years and was curious to try it out. My order of 24 oz of snow crab leg meat, 16oz snow crab claws, and 16oz lobster claw meat cost me $315. But the appeal of not having to break through the shells and sometimes not getting all the meat can't be denied. Enjoying seafood sometimes is a lot of work so it was nice not having to cut through shells.
New Year's Day was pretty quiet as well. There is another random family currently housed at the AirBnB/VRBO across from us but thankfully they are mostly quiet. We did have a nightmarish situation there with a large gathering there at Thanksgiving and some of the cars parking without our permission in our small lot and they were noisy. We contemplated calling the police but the extra cars did wind up moving after an hour or so. I have not been thrilled with having it so close to our house and the main owner is not a nice person at all. The one positive is that the main owner is next door in the garage so if things really go south, at least he's there to deal with it firsthand.
I was dismayed by our latest gas/electric bill from Nipsco being charged almost $500. Nipsco needs to be investigated. They are a monopoly like American Water and unfortunately they get away with charging higher and higher prices. It's crazy how a company can be so universally despised yet they are an integral part of our existence since we need gas, electricity, and water to live. It's so frustrating.
I continue to pray I can hang on to my job with the rising costs of everything. Maybe get a small raise again. That might be too much to ask though...LOL. I do worry about the financial aspect of things since the stock market isn't exactly doing great either.
The latest on the Orange front is that he orchestrated an invasion in Venezuela and took the president Nicolas Maduro and his wife hostage. The reasoning seems to be due to the need to control oil. It does appear the Venezuelan people are for it but what's to stop Orange from trying to take out Canada, Mexico, or Greenland. He himself is a wanna-be dictator.
We're coming on one year since he's been in office. Will we survive for another three years? Will Orange? Maybe Orange planned this latest attack in an attempt to minimize the stock market reaction to the news and of course to add more distractions from the Epstein files.
As for New Year resolutions, I haven't made any official ones. I do have the goal still of paying off the mortgage this year which is on target. It will definitely be an exciting time. I do want to work on being more healthy in 2026. We shall see what's in store for the year. Whatever happens I'll do my best to navigate through things.
