Was He The One?

Shanice - You Were The One 

VERSE 1:
I know things don't last forever
But I thought that you were true
I guess I've been mistaken
Cause our love is done and through
It hurts me
Cause I know I was true to you
And I'm sorry for whatever I've done to you

REFRAIN:
Oo-oo-oo baby
You were the one for me
Baby can't you see
You shouldn't have set me free
And oh why did you let me go
I thought our love could grow
You know I loved you so
You were the one

My friend Midas and I have had quite the ride since he's first came into my life in 2008.   He's one of the sweetest guys I've ever met and in all honesty was the best sex I've had.   I still remember fondly the first time we met on a random 4th of July weekend night.   I drove over to his apartment and I was pleasantly surprised how handsome he was in person.   Once inside his apartment I reached out to shake his hand but he pulled me towards him and we had the most passionate kiss.    When I say that I felt electricity spark, just typing these words and reliving the moment in my head, I'm feeling that spark.   Very appropriate feeling those inside fireworks on the 4th of July weekend.  LOL

At the time my ex-Rock and I were in the tail end of our relationship.   Midas was the first guy I met since being with Rock for almost two years.   I remember being so nervous too and Midas being a calming influence.   We talked for a bit and then he led me to his lair where we had our first sexual encounter.   

I quickly caught feelings for Midas which proved to be dangerous since he was not looking to commit to anyone.   Wanting to still be with him, I hid my true feelings and we continued to meet periodically to hook up.   Midas even had me doing some 3-ways with him.   He's the only guy I've ever done that with.   I remember after the first 3-way and the third left the apartment he sat down with me and asked how I felt about it.   I remember us talking about it for a few more minutes before eventually I left his apartment as well.  It felt good knowing that he wanted to hear my feelings.

In time though my feelings got deeper for Midas and he was not on the same page.   So after a few years of fun, I told him that I couldn't hook up with him anymore.   I confessed how I felt about him and he told me he wasn't looking to be in a relationship.   In fact I remember the date that we last hooked up.   That's how much I was into Midas.   It was New Year's Day 2011.

He tried for awhile to still connect with me but I kept my distance.   He eventually stopped asking me to hook up.   We reconnected again a few years ago and we've maintained a friendly banter.    He would always check up on me periodically to see how I was doing.   He always had an encouraging word to say especially when I went through the trails of unemployment and losing both my parents.   I've been there for him too with a kind word as he's currently dealing with unemployment and health issues (his heart).   We even met for lunch midway between our homes in 2021.   It was our first time seeing each other in person since 2016.   Just lunch, yes...LOL.

But in recent months we've added some sexual banter to our chats.  I confided in him last year that Dom and I aren't having sex anymore.   I admit our sex texts have got me thinking about meeting up with Midas for real.  It would be nice to have a regular reliable sex partner.   Of course I would have to tell Dom about him as well if it went there.    But I'm afraid to open that door again.   My biggest fear is what if the sex isn't as magical as it was back then.  Would we lose our friendship?   I would hate to not have him in my life anymore.

A part of me over the years wondered what would've happened if Midas was open to having more with me.   Would we still be together today?   I know the odds of that being the case is nil.   I definitely am happy though that Midas and I still keep in touch to this day.   Had we decided to pursue a relationship it's possible that we wouldn't still be in touch in the event the relationship went south.

Life is so crazy.   I do feel like Midas could've been the one.  I wish he could've seen it back then.   But like I said I'm grateful that we still keep in touch.   Hard to believe it's going on 14 years.   We'll see where things go next.